to think that someone thought they saw me and had a mix of emotion is surprising. i tend to think that the emotions i evoke in people range from insignificant to nonexistent. strange how some parts of me are so past high school melodrama and others are caught in catchphrases like self-esteem.
recently recieved an email from a friend. the relationship never really got started, but we'll call it friends anyway. i don't have so many of those that i can discount those lurking in the pre- and post- stages of friendship.
not sure how things are here. with the semester coming to an end and me wondering whether i have accomplished anything. papers due and tests looming. stories unfinished and finishing. revisions waiting, waiting. and me wondering if i have accomplished anything.
why am i here? do i really think i can write? why am i even asking these questions?
the touchpad on my laptop failed inexplicably today. when i try to go into the settings to fix it, the settings application fails and closes. perhaps this is only the beginning of a long slow stage of shutdown. let's hope people don't start mimicking computers anytime soon. although perhaps they already have, since computers have begun mimicking people, so if people mimicked computers then they would really be mimicking a mimic of themselves... echoes of baudrillard.
this is a long way to say that thanksgiving was great in philly, and i am sad to be back facing the same set of scholastic problems that i was when i left.
T-ball
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